Oh no, I guess I didn’t make myself clear. The thing is that I’m suffering depression and have been having suicidal thoughts in the last months, so I created a blog to express my feelings there because I obviously can’t do it in real life without being called a coward, a lunatic or even selfish. I have a normal blog where I post about other stuff, but not suicidal ones because I have made friends there and I don’t want them to look at me like crazy too.
Anyway, in this blog I have been checking the suicide tag in the last two days, and I found four or five suicidal posts that I feel I relate to, so I liked and reblogged them. But a few minutes later, I checked that same tag again and then I got nothing. I couldn’t see anything. It’s like magically all posts tagged as “suicide” disappeared. I thought it was a tagging problem from Tumblr, so I checked that again in my other normal blog (where I don’t talk about suicide) and BAM, there I can see the tag and all the suicidal posts people make.
I did a bit of a research and apparently Tumblr has a policy against suicidal blogs. They close them if Tumblr thinks they promote suicide or self-harm. But Tumblr does not differentiate between people who promote suicide (I didn’t even know that kind of people existed!) and people who just talk about it or need a way to express their worries and release their pain. So, when you like or reblog several suicidal posts in a row, Tumblr automatically blocks that tag for you because they think that by liking and reblogging them, you are promoting self-harm and suicide too.